Dear Diary , Hii , It's been a while since I last updated my page - almost a week. School started for me and it's surprisingly going pretty well for me. Alot of my teachers are really nice and seem like great people (asp my homeroom / form teacher who also teaches my class Polish and History - we all luv u sir ) and like its sort of been fun I guess?? I've met a lot of new people and I like it here. Polish school is certainly different from my old school in England. I've noticed that a lot of rules are different in school - eg. The use of a phone !! In my old school , we weren't allowed to use a phone at all or it will get confiscated until the end of the lesson !!! NOW THEY'VE CHANGED THAT RULE SO IT GETS TAKEN FOR 2 WEEKS. IS THAT EVEN LEGAL HELLO?? Also like the crazy thing for me is how people greet eachother here. Like It's not unusual for girls to do the 'hug and greet' thingy but like WOW to me that's crazy. I wish I could do that but I'm kinda scared to... We played volleyball in P.E yesterday !!! I've never played volleybal before... I can't even serve so um I was kinda panicking alot during that lesson , asp when it was MY TURN to serve the ball infront of the whole fricken class!!!! One guy from my class (we'll call him Lloyd - like Lloyd from Ninjago) said something along the lines of ''she's got this'' which made me happy like I mean atleast someone believes in me . Lloyd seems like a really nice guy and I really want to talk to him but I really dont have the guts to which makes me sad because I really really want to I just don't know what to say and not sound weird. I don't know how to talk w people and asp boys. Like ok I know how to talk w boys when I'm not interested in them but when I am interested in them even SLIGHTLY I cannot. It's so annoying. I had really bad cramps today at school which pmo. I took 2 paracetemols and they did not do anything so I was suffering for 5 hours :(( Life is so sad. I want to cry. I have not been feeling good lately. I find myself missing E (That's the first letter of her name I wont be revealing more in fear she'll find this :,)) and my other school friend. Completely out of context but for a mini backstory basically me and E were kinda in this massive friendgroup which fell apart and she went to a diff group I guess??? And I kinda had a crush on her (October 23 was a canon event ...) and I think she kinda liked me back then I stopped liking her but like idk she was kinda special to me I miss her the most out of all my secondary school friends. She was the one I trusted the most and still do pretty much. Also I miss my cousin. And I'm sleepy so I'll go now. I love you !!